I’ve been feeling kind of off lately. You know when you just don’t know what the heck is wrong, but don’t feel a hundred percent? So to make myself feel better, I spent some time thinking about all the work I’ve been doing on myself–and no, I don’t mean plastic surgery.
The past five years have been full of challenges, new experiences, opportunities, epiphanies – you name it, it’s happened. I created a whole new life, got my creativity back, took a lot of risks and made a ton of mistakes, celebrated triumphs and mourned failures. I learned a lot about myself, and I’ve validated that age-old idea that happiness does come from within. I’ve mostly figured out what feeds my soul and what doesn’t. I’ve screwed up a lot, too, but hopefully the lessons will outweigh the aggravation.
I’ve become a devoted subject of Louise Hay, Deepak Chopra, The Secret, SARK. I’ve worked with crystals, tried my hand at meditation (not so good at it yet), learned about power animals, started to change my handwriting, bought stock in positivity quotes. I’ve done Transformational Kinesiology, became a homeopathic patient, tried acupuncture and got better at yoga. I even became Reiki I certified, thanks to Kim, and Reiki II is on the horizon. I did The Artist’s Way, which totally changed my life (again, thanks to Kim). I’ve made vision boards, I’ve affirmed myself to the point of no return, and I’ve done P90X. I’ve been really sad, and really happy.
It’s all been pretty awesome.
I still have a lot of work to do–patience and forgiveness come immediately to mind–but I think I’ve done ok. I know there’s more to learn that I haven’t discovered yet. I’m hoping I can take a break from learning hard lessons for a while, and that the next phase comes a bit more easily. I’m grateful for the opportunities that have come my way. Yes, even the ones that came in the form of challenges.
And I’m thinking it’s ok to feel a little off sometimes, as long as I can bring myself back, with gratitude.